Going from a constant rolling list of things I needed to do in a day or a week….to literally only having a list of things I would “like” to do…is such a hard adjustment.
If I dont feel like doing a single thing on my weekend….it’s ok. If I want to sleep in or lay around alll day….it’s ok. If I want to work on a project for myself over several days and leave it out while I can’t work on it….it’s ok. It’s been years since I have felt like I could read a book in one sitting guilt free, something I used to really enjoy.
The amount of guilt and anxiety I had over always having to be productive or get things done or work extra hours is indescribable. I have cut back so much on bills and physical stuff. I get to work a normal schedule. I still have more to get rid of. So weird, but I will get used to it.
Roadtripping Thru Grief 
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